Rant Thread

[urian]

People who follow like sheep are fucking ridiculous. Grow a fucking backbone and start thinking for yourself. Life is NOT as rosy and peachy as you want to believe. Bad guys DO wear white; people who lie, manipulate, and cheat do it forever, politicians can't be trusted, santa doesn't fucking exist; and the world is NOT going to be saved with pot, orgies and "love".

Reality is 90% perception. so as long as your perception is someone else's lies, you're useless and an utter waste of space, air, and flesh. There are too many fucking sheep on this dying planet as it is, we don't need any more self-deluded, bleeding heart fuckers around here.

Think for yourself, drag yourself out of the mud and muck of the shit hole of low self -esteem and pseudo-romantic dreams, kick yourself in the ass hard enough to get your head out of it and start living instead of just surviving.


ho ho motherfucking ho.

[horrorgirl]

I can't stand people who take no responsibility for their own actions. It just bugs the batshit out of me. I used to have a ***********, and constantly I would have to read posts by people saying crap like 'Woe is me....woe is me.....I did something stupid and now I'm paying for it. However I'm going to be a dumbass and ask for pity anyway.' Those kind of people deserve no pity at all. If you dig your own hole you better be prepared to be buried in it. If you don't want to take responsibility for your own actions then maybe you should crawl back into your mother's womb, because that is the only place on the planet that you will be all safe and snug like the little baby that you are. Wah...freakin' wah..cry me a river.

[horrorgirl]

Originally Posted by Santarea

I... I love you. I seriously fucking love you.

It;s like I don't even have to post anymore. You said it. Shiiiiiiit.

I'll just add- don't whine and bitch and moan about not wanting the attantion then get pissy when I ignore you.

HA!!!! :-)

Originally Posted by Manimal

Wow. Where to begin. I've been looking at this post and the ones that followed for days now - still not quite sure what to say.

I'll start by simply saying that her pain is genuine. The fevers, bleeding and throwing up is real. The inibility for her to eat or sleep is very real. I was there every day and saw it get worse and worse. I was shocked, scared, and completely powerless. She suffers from three major health issues and none of them have a cure. All three of them individually make the body attack itself in a painful manner. When combined they become something that I simply would not have the strength to endure. I am really ashamed of anyone who has trivialized what she has endured for the last 16 years - including myself.

I can't defend some of the decisions she's made - in fact some I don't think I can ever forgive. I know there are others that feel even more strongly than I do - whether it's totally justified or not. All I can say is I tried. And I know that she tried. Circumstances and our own fears of conflict and our weaknesses and her severe illness pushed us onto a devastating path of... I dont even know what to call it.

When everything first came crashing down I was desperate for understanding. I totally broke down. I've never broken down in my entire life - I didnt even think I was capable of such a loss of control - but there it was. For weeks and weeks. It still happens. In my reaching out I talked to people I thought I could trust - I talked to people I knew I shouldnt trust. I asked questions I shouldn't have asked and got answers I shouldn't have been given. So many different versions - so many half truths from all sides. In the end I had to piece it all together on my own - sort through truth - sort through the lies and misinformation. In the end I learned that no one was completely honest with me - not one single person. The vultures were circling overhead and saw blood. Rumors became facts and, according some stuff I've recently read, it hasn't stopped. It's sad really - from all parties involved in this terrible drama. The last couple months have changed me forever and I've learned a lot about who I can trust. Sadly it's a very short list.

We may not be together anymore but she is still my friend. I don't care who doesn't approve. I see a very good friend of mine who's walked a dark path for too long and is in need of help. I see a good friend who I've hurt and who has hurt me but deserves a chance to try and make right some of what has gone so wrong. I see a good friend who's realizing just how far gone she's become and is trying to reach back. I see a good friend who wants to live. I see a good friend who without intervention is going to die.

I can't let that happen. Not to her. Not to any of my friends. Not even the friends so full of hate and impatience that they cannot see but one side of the story. Not even to my friends that would judge and label me harshly for not reacting the way they think I should. I don't have many friends but all them have my loyalty for life. It is both my greatest strength and my greatest weakness.

And for my own rant: I want the public drama over all of this to stop. Every time you guys think you are stabbing each other you're just stabbing me. I'm the guy in the middle trying to make sense of it all so I can do the right thing. Everytime one side tries to plunge a knife in the other it goes through me first - I'm begging you please stop. You may think me wrong, or that I'm making a mistake, or you may even hate me but please if there is any respect there at all - I ask that you keep negative comments and rants centered around our circle private.

I quoted the above from Manimal, and before I say a word I’d like to direct everyone’s attention to the Tennessee Williams signature I’ve been carrying around for a while (it’s there at the bottom) and I’d like to ask everyone to read that, and then read Manimal’s post again.

Yeah, I thought he exemplified the idea, too. Hell IS ourselves, and I find it so…endearing…hopeful…magnificent, because here is a man who has put himself aside to feel deeply for another, and I don’t mind being a sheep in these circumstances, I could find a far worse example to follow, and I too would like to add my deep sorrow for E_P_S’s continued condition.

Thank you, both of you, for sharing that portion of yourselves, and my thoughts are with you.

You great and beautiful people that you are.

[winged_dreams]

Fuck you spyaxe!!! Fucking make me spaz out and think that I have spyware on my computer. Checked the ip address of our computer that it supposedly knew. It lied in that aspect. Anytime you deleted the program, it would immediately come back once you restarted the computer. It has a file hidden in Windows next to a normal file. It's sneaky and I certainly despise these freaking spyaxe bastards! It would say you have spyware on your computer so buy this and we can remove it for you. *hisses* I don't know if this will/has happened to anyone else but here's a link on how to remove it.

http://www.sysinternals.com/Forum/fo...200&PN=1&TPN=2

fucking spyware. i fucking hate spyware...i swear if i should ever in my life come across a person who claims to work for a company that produces this crap i will most definitely knock out at least three of their front teeth.

i've spent at least eight hours on several computers recently cleaning up spy/mal/adware and had actual bad dreams about them. fucking spyware.

It's good to see you're still around TStone.

[AlKilyu]

Hey Tek where ya been?

I hate spyware too. I found (since it is a bane to my paying job) that with spyware, you need to use two or three programs to get everything off of your computer, no shit.

AdAware, spybot, and I can't remember the third software I use. spybot has an option that will let you know if a site you visit is trying to place one on your harddrive, and gives you the option to deny it or not.

[tenet_2012]

I use AVG Free and have no problems with viruses, adware, nor spyware.

If you don't run it, you should check it out.

i've been around Al, slightly quiet this time of the year.

i've never had any problems with my computer. The only protection i have on my computer is Spyware Blaster. Still i have no problems.

Usually when i go into a spyware removal job, i bring along Avast (awesome antivirus program), Spybot, AdAdware, AVG, Spyware Blaster, and ClamWin (a very good open source antivirus program). It.Just.Takes.Fucking.Forever.

I have been on hold with you shit fuckers for an HOUR now. FUCKING ANSWER THE GODDAMN PHONE!!! I fucking hate waiting on the goddamn phone. I fucking hate it. I want to hurt someone. I want to chew out the first bitch that comes onto the line. And I swear, if the reason I've been on hold this long is because you've been on lunch, I'm going to fucking lose it and pound the first person I see when I actually go down there!

The worst part? Every fuckin minute, a recording comes on that says "Thank you for holding. Your call is important to us." KILL!!!

[tenet_2012]

The only complaint I have today:

I HATE SUPERFICIAL FAGS!

[Corpus_Draconis]

Originally Posted by GeishaGirl

a recording comes on that says "Thank you for holding. Your call is important to us."

That "Thankyou for holding" part is brutal. Do they play bad music too? Good luck with whoever you're phoning. :S

As for my rant, I'm wondering why I have to be so paranoid. Not like "Everyone's plotting to kill me" or "I can't tell my personal issues to people or they'll blab and make fun." More like I only see things that might indicate that they're angry at me or don't want me around. Or I think of how quiet they are around me, but I never truly take into account that I'm a very quiet person. A couple weeks ago, I thought my friend was angry at me and I had no idea why, and I was so upset that she "was angry" at me that I cried about it every night, and nearly cried over it several times in public, which is something I try to avoid at all costs. But then I talked to her and found out it was all in my head. And I'm doing it again and it's making me all asocial, but I don't want to be asocial cuz I'm gonna be leaving in a couple days to go home and I don't want to leave on that note. I know in my head that my friends aren't angry at me, but I can't get it out of my head and it makes me feel like I'm a bad person, which in turn makes me dislike myself, and affects everything I do, so I don't enjoy anything much anymore, unless it distracts me from myself. Being social used to do that, but I've just gotten so paranoid... I don't even find much pleasure in art, and that was one of my favourite things. I always felt right when I was drawing, but now there's that nagging feeling that I'm worthless, and it makes me think I'm not good for anything. I don't have any real motivation anymore. For school I try to get a good mark, but I just can't do it, especially with English. I just can't make connections between poems and stories and all that crap, and I can't formulate any useful thought about it, so I end up almost failing. And perhaps that's part of the problem; I don't belive in myself. I'll never be a good enough artist and no one will buy my work (even tho people have bought some of it already), I'll never be a good girlfriend/friend/daughter/mother/wife/whatever I end up being (if I become anything) because I have no passion, I'll never be a good friend cuz I'm shitty at comforting people when they need it. It makes me cry how much I dislike myself. Oh and here's an other reason: I have no integrity. I promised my mom I wouldn't injure myself anymore, and not three weeks after I get to university, I start up again. And then she's gonna see my scars when I go home for christmas and she'll pull me out of university. I don't want to be pulled out! I love the people here.... Except that I constantly think they dislike me. *bites lip*

[tenet_2012]

Whoa eye killer...

Find the enter key, Jesus!

[Corpus_Draconis]

Originally Posted by Xnguela

So it's OK that it's not entirely legible as long as there's no "plz help me" at the end...

Hey, at least I used proper punctuation and capitalisation.

[Corpus_Draconis]

lol Glad to hear it. I did get a little carried away tho... I didn't expect it to be so long.

[xXambivalenceXx]

I understand that people don't like being labeled as something they're not, and I understand that people just aren't Gothic, but I can NOT stand how people *my friends* get offended when they are labeled as Gothic. If you wear all black, heavy black eyeliner, and walk around like you're perpetually depressed, you'll be labeled as Goth, and you fucking know it. Don't bitch because people DO label you as such, and Don't get all offended and say how much you hate being called that with me standing there. I find it offensive. I'm Gothic, and nothing is wrong with it. You think something IS wrong with it, then I get to tell you I think you're make-up, clothes, and fake attitude are stupid and lame, too. You can't spell properly, you listen to shit that plays on Fuse or MTV because it's all you care to look for, regardless of how redundant and retarded it is. You shop at Hot Topic, because to you, it's GOD and nothing there is ugly. BUT if I talk about how stupid THAT shit is, you jump up and agree whole-heartedly. You're a fucking fake poseur who deserves to be shot.

[AlKilyu]

Yeah no worries Corpus, I could read it just fine. Besides, it wasn't drenched in self-pity like some are. ^_^

Originally Posted by GeishaGirl

I have been on hold with you shit fuckers for an HOUR now. FUCKING ANSWER THE GODDAMN PHONE!!! I fucking hate waiting on the goddamn phone. I fucking hate it. I want to hurt someone. I want to chew out the first bitch that comes onto the line. And I swear, if the reason I've been on hold this long is because you've been on lunch, I'm going to fucking lose it and pound the first person I see when I actually go down there!

The worst part? Every fuckin minute, a recording comes on that says "Thank you for holding. Your call is important to us." KILL!!!

Here's the icing to this. I finally did go down there after hangin up and guess what? THEY'RE CLOSED! Yup. They were closed the whole time. And instead of some genious making an "I'm sorry, we're closed" message, they just put you on eternal hold.

This is why people climb clocktowers!

[Shadowed Aegis]

Originally Posted by Santarea

Find the enter key, Jesus!

Thus spake Peter. John 3.1416....

Heh, that sounds almost like signature material.

Corpus, that sounds like you're holding in major guilt. Like somewhere, you did something that you're not proud of, so now you're "expecting" a reaction from your friends and loves ones, like anger, when they don't even know what is going on.

Does that make sense? It sounds like you're feeling guilty and punishing yourself through them.

[Gnossos]

I really, really hate Verizon. Usually it's the DSL that has fits and vapors and fainting spells worthy of an upperclass Victorian housewife (and we are forced to deal with "service technicians" who are more suited to working the late shift at a 7-11 in Central Florida), but yesterday, our land line died.

First, I called the repair service number listed in the phone book. Silly me. They could not complete my as dialed. Then I called the general information number, and entered that particular push-button/voice command circle of hell presided over by The Robo-Bitch Automaton (I wish I could speak Spanish; the guy who tells you to push "numero dos por Espanol" sounds kinda sexy).

So she and I go through all this happy horseshit, involving many "yes", "no", and various numerical responses. My favorite part was when she asked, AFTER determining that our phone was out of order, if I was calling from that number. Sadly, there is no "Duh" option.

Verizon has tried to make Robo-Bitch sound all chummy and helpful in her own buzzy, irritating way. For example, she says things like, "Okay, I have your file now. I'm just going to run a few tests on your line. This may take a minute or two." If this is supposed to make me feel better about wasting my valuable time, it's not working.

Ultimately, Robo-Bitch wanted me to to go find some outlet that was in either in the basement or outside of the house, and test the line by my ownself. Yeah, right. This is what other people get paid for, and frankly, if I had to deal with anything more complicated than a GFI outlet, it would very possibly result in sad, painful Christmas memories for my friends and family for years to come. I hung up on her automated ass.

Then I panicked, called back, went through another ten minutes of rigmarole, and finally found the Holy Grail of Phone Sufferers: the Agent. At this point, my husband came home, and was able to deal with their DIY demands. He and Verizon determined that the problem was with the external line. He also taught me that if you just say, "Agent", over and over again, as soon as you get the Robo-Snatch on the line, you will get a human being tres faster. Who knew?

What TRULY pisses me off is that Verizon agreed that it was their problem, and sent a guy out that afternoon. In the meantime, the gremlins departed the premises, and everything worked fine when he arrived. However, they now want to charge us $90.00 for his "call", because they have reversed their opinion on responsibility.

It will be a cold day in hell before I pay for that bullshit.

[Gnossos]

But did you feel the hatred? The hatred only a faceless mega-entity can engender?

[crimsonmoon]

I can not understand bullies......
I made this quiz on one of those sites that let you keep in touch with your 'friends'.
it was an 'how well do you know this person?' quiz.i had done it for a laugh not to boast.one of my questions was 'what is my bra size?'it was a joke plus i had told no one what size i was,so i wondered if my friends could guess...
so along comes this girl that buillied me in year 6-7,she had more or less turned the whole year group against me whilst i was going through my parents divorce which i really did not appriciate the reason she buillied me? just because i had big boobs...
I would not have done this quiz if i had known she would read it.she takes my quiz leaves a comment titled in big letters:ALL GOTHS ARE FAT BITCHES.
this annoyed me for alot of reasons the main one was she knows nothing about the gothic scene and goths are not bitches they are the nicest people you will meet,unlike the kinda of person she is,just because we choose not to walk around in little miniskirts with pink tops and listen to rubbish pop music does not make us BITCHES.
once id got over the title i read her comment'WOTS MY BRA SIZE? U F**KIN SL*G!!! GET A LIFE NO ONE CARES BOUT UR F**KIN TITS U ANIT EVEN A * NEWAY U LIEING LIL WH**E! WHO DO U F**KIN FINK U R JORDAN(page 3 british glamour model with fake FF boobs).
Now she has no right calling me a sl*g or a wh**e she sleeps with a lot of different guys and i ve not slept with not one.
Then shes says im lying thats not true she was the one that would stuff toilet paper down her bra not me.
Then she says im trying to be like jordan thats also rubbish shes the one with the blonde hairfake boobs trying to be sexy.
she totally ruined my life,turning everyone against me even at a seperate high school i had no real friends because of her.
I did done nothing to no one, i decided to not stop to her level with no swearing,shouting and lies.so i replied:
Oh dear! Looks like your still the little pathetic little girl you were in year7,i would have thought you would have grown up by now.i made that quiz for my 'friends' as a joke not for you to do.im suprised you would stoop that low you probably would not have the guts to say that to me in person and as for calling me a sl*g that really is the pot calling the kettle black ive heard about what you get up to!
*** is my real bra size as i would not lie about it and i most certainly do not brag about it as i feel comfortable enough inside not to use my sexuality to gain friends which of course you would know all about.You are obviously still insecure about yourself so maybe you should see a councillor and if you still feel bad about yourself perhaps you should get a boob job and maybe the plastic surgeon will be kind enough to throw in a nose job!
Now you have read this you might understand how silly you really sound,hopefully may grow up a bit.So please stop wasting my very precious time!

The bit that annoyed me the most was 'goths are fat bitches' i have found 100% of goths ive met or spoke to on the net really nice,unlike her and her preppy/townie 'friends'.
It has taken me a long time to build up my confidence and trust and i finally moved on and then just like that she comes back.But this time im not the little girl hiding in her room.
Thanks for listening to my rant.

[Demonista_Ravenesque]

Crimsonmoon, Your rant...well, reminds me of how I often get bullied as well.

It simply makes me wonder why and how people could sink to a level lower than pondscum. It's ludicrous really.

Remember, bullies pick on others due to reasons of their own insecurities.

Fuck bullies.

[tenet_2012]

Tenet is once again, drunk.

Yay for E&J!

I was going to drink vodka RedBulls tonight (hence the change in avatar) but they are six bucks a pop. I had one then picked-up a bottle of Evil Jesus and, well, the rest is history.

Wow... that was hard to type!