Tell somthing about yourself, that you haven't shared with someone else

[NyQuil of Doom]

Yes Korova, fire is often involved as well. That, or red-hot pokers... again, generally in rather sensitive parts of the anatomy.

[Metatron]

Haha I'm a DDR junkie! As for another thing not many people know about me...I have synesthesia.

[LightPollution07]

something about me that I havnt told anyone else....
hmm....
When Im really lonely, I listen to anything thats familiar. Little kids songs even, like "Jesus loves me" and "If your happy and you know it" it soothes me

[Auriane]

Originally Posted by rockandrose

Auriane, you shouldn't even feel guilty for feeling that way. It's natural.

It means you're human.

Thanks It's nice to know some of the things you feel guilty of are natural. I guess we should all talk about this more often, we'd have much less frustrations that way.

[joyslayer]

I suppose we would, wouldn't we?

[lizzy]

Everyone makes mistakes, try not to feel too bad about it. People have made worse mistakes...

[joyslayer]

Yes we have.....

[Tall One In Black]

I have only three "secrets" that I don't tell Joe Q. Public. One is a mistake I'm ashamed of, the other two are not worth the long explanation required to put them in the proper context.

One thing that few people know about me is that I ran my own online gothic clothing/jewelry/accessories shop for two and a half years. Giving it up was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

[joyslayer]

Why did you give it up?

[rockandrose]

So, that's where the shoes came from!?

[joyslayer]

Ooh, I like shoes!

Originally Posted by dreamforthedead

I call it Mikey, it makes me feel safe and gives me something to blame strange things on. I called it Mikey because I think it looks like Mikey Way (the bassist from My Chemical Romance)

So...what did you call it BEFORE My Chemical Romance came out? I mean, if it's been with you your whole life, surely you named it before just one year ago.

[AlKilyu]

*I cheat on my boyfriend. I don't just have sex with everyone, but I make out with most people that are up to it. The boyfriend is completely oblivious, even though I've repeatedly told him that I'm not monogamous.
*More on the boyfriend. I can't imagine ever breaking up with him (we've been together for almost three years) without feeling physical and mental pain, but sometimes I catch myself wishing he would die in an accident. I don't want to hurt either him or me by ending the relationship, but I don't think I can ever be happy with being in a relationship with anyone, I'm much too individualistic for that.

Well as long as you are happy, that's all that matters. Make sure that you are sated and content by all means.

Originally Posted by Auriane

Er.. I'll just stop now. It's bad enough already. I'm just never able to talk about these things to anyone, and it tends to weigh heavy on me sometimes.

That's what's left of your twisted concious trying to save your soul.
I've never been so disgusted on this site since you-know-who was cracking 9/11 jokes.



rose you made me sad today...

Probably for the first time in my life, I'm starting to feel bad about my body.

I've always been a bit heavy. At the least, about 30 pounds overweight. And that's never bothered me. I've always thought of myself as tall, curvacious, statuesque. I loved my curves.

But now, I'm gaining weight like it's going out of style. I make jokes about my eating habits like "It takes a lot of hard work to keep this figure!" (usually said as I order another #2 at McDonalds). But when the day ends, and I undress for my shower, I look at myself in the mirror and I get worried about what I'm seeing. I'm not happy with my body, and no one knows, not even my boyfriend.

And the other secret part to this? I'm starting to have chest pains and dull aching where my heart is. It worries me, it definitly scares me, but whenever I want to go on a diet, I can't stick to it. I love the taste of food and I can't do it properly.

I've started thinking that when I have a heart attack, at the wonderful age of 26, I'll diet. But my head says "IF you survive the attack". It's scary. I know I'm killing myself and I can't stop.

I've never shared that with anyone before.

[eightbuxz]

Originally Posted by rockandrose

Auriane, you shouldn't even feel guilty for feeling that way. It's natural.

It means you're human.

Yea it's human but how about us, the guys... we'll i know not all but sometimes it's not fair when guys give all out for the girl which maybe it is stupidity in our part. Damn! i don't know what to say but maybe i'm just stupid because when i fall inlove i give 100% or even more for that girl.

and Auriane after making out with Edible, don't forget eightbuxz i can be the sweetest course after a nice supper.

[dreamforthedead]

Originally Posted by GeishaGirl

So...what did you call it BEFORE My Chemical Romance came out? I mean, if it's been with you your whole life, surely you named it before just one year ago.

My Chemical Romance have been out since about 2002 I thought, but anyway. I called it 'Thing', but I always felt a bit mean so when I saw MCR for the first time and saw Mikey, well I thought "Hey now Thing can have a name" and felt all warm and fuzzy.

[eightbuxz]

Originally Posted by joyslayer

Ooh, I like shoes!

Ooh, I like You!

[rockandrose]

Al, my comment was very vague.

Auriane shouldn't feel guilty for the way that she thinks and feel. I think it's natural to 'consciously' view the world from a different persective as opposed to only viewing life as made only of pink lollipops.

This does not conclude that I support what Auriane has done.

Thinking and acting are two different things.

Thinking is harmless. It is the actions that we choose to take that be of harm.

I've fanaticised about cheating with married men and I think it would be fun. I used to feel guilty for thinking like that but not anymore. Though, I've never acted on this thought. I would however feel guilty which I should if I acted on this.

Does that make sense?

[eightbuxz]

much better... *wink*

[Tall One In Black]

Originally Posted by joyslayer

Why did you give it up?

My business partner, who did the photography and graphic design for the catalog, suddenly decided to quit.

And my boyfriend of two years, who was bipolar, completely flaked out. He dumped me and ended up moving to England.

The business had grown too large for me to maintain on my own, but I had no money to hire help. I was an emotional wreck from my boyfriend's departure, which exacerbated my own depression. I had no support system, no friends. I tried to hang on, but it was just too much for me to handle.



rockandrose,
I didn't actually sell shoes in my shop. If I had, though, they probably would have been similar to these. I did sell clothes, jewelry, tights, cosmetics, hair dye, candles, decor... lots of gothy goodies. Ah, nostalgia!

[TheKorovaMilkbar]

Originally Posted by Tall One In Black

My business partner, who did the photography and graphic design for the catalog, suddenly decided to quit.

And my boyfriend of two years, who was bipolar, completely flaked out. He dumped me and ended up moving to England.

The business had grown too large for me to maintain on my own, but I had no money to hire help. I was an emotional wreck from my boyfriend's departure, which exacerbated my own depression. I had no support system, no friends. I tried to hang on, but it was just too much for me to handle.

Well, if it helps in ANY way, I'm a photographer and graphic designer. If you want to re-open your shop, I would be MORE than happy to help.

Originally Posted by NyQuil

Yes Korova, fire is often involved as well. That, or red-hot pokers... again, generally in rather sensitive parts of the anatomy.

Yes, sexcellent. Same here. In fact, since I have a bit of a fear of burning to death, that is the number one torture I imagine inflicting on others.

[eightbuxz]

Originally Posted by TheKorovaMilkbar

Well, if it helps in ANY way, I'm a photographer and graphic designer. If you want to re-open your shop, I would be MORE than happy to help.

Same here.. if you need a guy to help in selling or something.. I've got 2 hands here and 2 feet... So when is the ribbon cutting???

[Tall One In Black]

Thanks, Korova and eight. Offers like that mean a lot to me.

I have considered re-opening under a somewhat different plan - selling my own designs and crafts instead of selling Lip Service, Shrine, Jeannie Nitro, etc - and on a smaller scale. I am thinking about having a booth at Convergence in April, just to see if people would be interested in my designs.

[TheKorovaMilkbar]

Well, if it helps I will be getting 500 watt photo flood lights soon (for portraits and what not), so with a white fill card and white sheet background material (which shouldn't be hard to get), I could do product pictures and such.

And I'm an advanced photoshop user (thanks to my teacher and biggest artistic influence).

Just let me know if you make any decisions on anything. I enjoy photography and it would be a way of advertising my skills to the public.

[AlKilyu]

Originally Posted by rockandrose

Does that make sense?

I didn't think you would condone that, I guess I see where you are coming from, but asside from her "death fantasy" she is partaking in that behaviour, that's very real (according to her).

If he is oblivious to her infidelity it's because she doesn't tell him the next day that she banged someone the night before. Among being cruel that's a health risk to him, is it not?

The guy loves her enough to trust her, and in return she wishes he'd get hit by a car and die.

You feel guilt, that's the difference.