Sometimes....

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 12:42 AM

I really miss the little psycho that I shared a year and a half of my life with.

I'm not the most sane person around and I felt that the two of us made a good match (even though she tried to kill me multiple times).

It was never a dull moment E.D.C. and if you are around here I hope you read this,and know that as crazy as I am and as crazy as this is going to sound.

I still love ya' little snow,and I hope things are going well for you.

the rest of you fuckers can rot.

But not her.

Ben Lahnger · 08-11-2011, 05:38 AM

It's another day and another cut
She said kiss me fool I'm not a slut
If the eyes are the windows to the soul
Her soul's somewhere in Mexico
And slow down shut off the power
This taste is getting sour
I feel a sickness coming over me

I'm in love with a sociopath (hey!)
I'm in love with a sociopath (hey!)
I'm in love with a sociopath (hey!)
She makes me happy

Crazy in the head
Crazy in the bed
I know that's not a lie

Crazy in the head
Crazy in the bed
I better make her mine

I'm in love with a sociopath (hey!)
I'm in love with a sociopath (hey!)
I'm in love with a sociopath (hey!)
She makes me happy

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 04:02 PM

Even though you're most likely trying to make fun of me, you pretty well nailed it.

I miss the crazy little thing.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 04:31 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1zBG...eature=related

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 06:59 PM

The more I try to push thoughts of her aside the more I can't help but think of her and the good times we had together.

The reason I didn't do anything to hurt her is ....well because I couldn't bring myself to do so.

So much of my time with her was trying to get her back on her feet,toward the end when she started getting violent all I would do was restrain her,nothing more nothing less.

I'm not going to lie I got pretty angry with her more than a few times,but a man is a man when he knows to restrain himself even when angry enough to as my dad would say "chew railroad spikes and spit out nails"

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 07:06 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Je8MXiwmNIk

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 07:11 PM

I wouldn't change her if I could,to me she was perfect in every way.

AshleyO · 08-11-2011, 08:43 PM

She failed to kill you? Fuck, she sucks at everything.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 08:59 PM

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Originally Posted by AshleyO

She failed to kill you? Fuck, she sucks at everything.

Pipe down young un'!

You know not of whom you speak.

She was a damn fine shot with a revolver.

Besides you're talking about somebody that I love now as much as I did then.

AshleyO · 08-11-2011, 09:08 PM

Yeah, I don't see where any of that is something I should care about. Plus, no. She clearly SUCKS at shooting. Yeah, I checked up on your torrid past here. You're about as big as the broadside of a barn. How the HELL did she miss if she doesn't suck?

It's not polite to lie about people, Deadman.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 09:18 PM

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Yeah, I don't see where any of that is something I should care about. Plus, no. She clearly SUCKS at shooting. Yeah, I checked up on your torrid past here. You're about as big as the broadside of a barn. How the HELL did she miss if she doesn't suck?

It's not polite to lie about people, Deadman.

She didn't shoot at me,she had the weapon pointed at me and was ready to shoot but didn't do so.

I take that as meaning that deep down she actually gave a shit about somebody other than herself for once (plus I saw in her eyes how spooked she was).

I mean if she was half as evil as she let on, she would've slit my throat as I slept (she had more than a few chances to do so).

AshleyO · 08-11-2011, 09:39 PM

You know, she sounds like a real piece of shit. Boy, you've got some crummy tastes.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 09:45 PM

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Originally Posted by AshleyO

You know, she sounds like a real piece of shit. Boy, you've got some crummy tastes.

She was better than most of the sluts on here,and sexy as hell to boot.

AshleyO · 08-11-2011, 10:24 PM

I really doubt it, dude.

Most of the sluts on here probably wouldn't touch you with your own dick.

Oh yeah. I saw your pictures. I'm sure a rotund gent such as yourself is just oggling that obscure Perfect 10 model you're going on about. You know... the psycho with no courage in her convictions and was pointing a gun at you for some pitiful attention.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 10:33 PM

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Originally Posted by AshleyO

I really doubt it, dude.

Most of the sluts on here probably wouldn't touch you with your own dick.

Oh yeah. I saw your pictures. I'm sure a rotund gent such as yourself is just oggling that obscure Perfect 10 model you're going on about. You know... the psycho with no courage in her convictions and was pointing a gun at you for some pitiful attention.

12-15-12!

Glad to see you're not full of yourself.

12-15-12!

AshleyO · 08-11-2011, 10:36 PM

I'm a fucking beacon of modesty. Mama's gonna go easy on you now and stop intellectually spanking you. I think you've had enough for one night.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-11-2011, 10:50 PM

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Originally Posted by AshleyO

I'm a fucking beacon of modesty. Mama's gonna go easy on you now and stop intellectually spanking you. I think you've had enough for one night.

*same answer as before*

Hahahahahaha!

Stop using the fly swatter then it tickles too damn much.

Catch · 08-12-2011, 07:08 PM

Yah, I guess it is easy to miss someone and then find the crazy things they are doing or saying somewhere like the internet in a lament for the end of the relationship.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-12-2011, 07:38 PM

It's the little things that get to me the most I guess.

The way she would snuggle up and fall asleep with her head on my chest when we would watch tv or a movie.

I wouldn't make a move and sometimes I would whisper in her ear that I loved her and would give her a kiss on the top of the head,and she would snuggle up a bit more.

I miss hearing her laugh when she was feeling good and wasn't sick.

Most importantly I miss seeing that little spark in her eye when something I said pissed her off (mostly that she shouldn't try to lift something heavy because it would hurt her) and she would give me that look like "You just fucking watch me big man" then do her damndest to try and prove me wrong.

Vince · 08-12-2011, 08:48 PM

This thread has a full days worth of win _and_ fail. Deadmanwalking calling someone crazy...now that's the funniest thing i've read all day. Thanks, mate, i needed that.

You know...you could move on. And possibly find someone that isn't afraid of going to prison...just saying.

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-12-2011, 09:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Vince

This thread has a full days worth of win _and_ fail. Deadmanwalking calling someone crazy...now that's the funniest thing i've read all day. Thanks, mate, i needed that.

You know...you could move on. And possibly find someone that isn't afraid of going to prison...just saying.

I've tried to move on,things just haven't worked out.

And it's not the trying to kill me part that is the hang up,it's the fact that she couldn't go through with it (meaning that she had to care about me on some level otherwise I wouldn't be typing this out right now) she had me dead to rights and couldn't pull the trigger.

Also death doesn't scare me (been there done that),don't get me wrong I like living but the thought of dieing doesn't really get to me the way it does most folks (fucked up explanation I know, but it's the truth).

Vince · 08-12-2011, 10:18 PM

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And it's not the trying to kill me part that is the hang up,it's the fact that she couldn't go through with it (meaning that she had to care about me on some level otherwise I wouldn't be typing this out right now) she had me dead to rights and couldn't pull the trigger.

Once i had someone in my sights. The bead was on him. The safety off. Buckshot was loaded. Finger on the fucking trigger. His look of shock still sickens me to this day. And i hated the son of a bitch with every ounce of my heart...

...yet i couldn't pull the trigger.

Even during all that rage i still had some rational thought...i was NOT going to prison for killing this bastard.

Where you see "She Still Loves Me" is more than likely "I'm Not Going To Prison For Killing This Asshole"....

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-12-2011, 10:33 PM

She also could have thought that "The guy saved my ass from becoming a human lawn dart after I crashed the ATV into a guardrail at 48 M.P.H."

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-12-2011, 10:45 PM

If it weren't for me putting my left arm around her waist she would've went head first over the handlebars,and if it wasn't for my actions the thing would've rolled over on top of us on asphalt (damn near snapped my right leg at the knee)

Deadmanwalking_05 · 08-12-2011, 10:49 PM

She was also going through shock because she then wandered onto the road,I had to guide her back to the ATV so we could get back home and get her checked out (I was spooked as all hell that she might have had damage internally).

She fucked up her left wrist but other than that she was okay.