Rant Thread II

[Saya]

Originally Posted by Valhalla

I've always been afraid of that happening. Is any part of your papers backed up? :/

Noooope, but I haven't been on my online course in a bit, apparently we got an extension til midnight on the 7th, thank GAWD. The other paper is a four page essay on Vietnam vets and the rewriting of the Vietnam War, so I think I'm good.

[Fruitbat]

Originally Posted by Valhalla

^ Jesus, Versus. That looks terrible. I hope your leg doesn't explode or something.



D: I'd hug you if I thought it wouldn't weird you out.

Awww... thanks... I can hug when I don't think about it and the other person initiates the hug, but if it's one of those awkward do we hug or not then I don't tend to.

I did once have a male friend hug me, and hold onto me once, I freaked out (but that was about 10 years ago and I haven't been game to try it since.

[Acharis]

Versus, DUDE. I think it is your cruciate ligament.. if they won't let you see a doctor til Monday I'd do all the Rest Ice Compression Elevation shit. Also Voltaren is a cream that has aspirin like chemicals that sink in through your skin.

If someone tries to make you walk on that in the meantime - administer uppercuts.


Thanks Fruitbat.
I'm getting better, the "perky" act is still a bit awkward but nobody would know. I'm starting to enjoy the company of my new friends, just have days sometimes where I'm either really fragile or want to punch someone in the face. Feels fake to suppress that, but everything works much better for me if I do the socially acceptable nice face.

Still learning how to act like other women and slowly making progress... sometimes I wonder if I'm in the right gender!

I'm much better with hugs, they freaked me a bit at first but I'm more used to them since I started going to goth clubs. Everyone there hugs casually and often so it's no longer so out of left-field or suspect. (Well, usually. Still a few people I watch.)




Saya, have you tried Knoppix?

If you don't have a second computer capable of taking two drives that you're willing to fiddle with (neither do I) there's the Linux live cd option. http://www.ehow.com/how_4544795_reco...ard-drive.html

I might have to try that myself... Still new to this stuff lol. I replaced my crashed hard drive with a new one from CPL and have already installed Mint so I now just have to learn how to use Linux and see what I can do. www.linuxmint.com/edition.php?id=94

[Versus]

Originally Posted by Acharis

Versus, DUDE. I think it is your cruciate ligament.. if they won't let you see a doctor til Monday I'd do all the Rest Ice Compression Elevation shit. Also Voltaren is a cream that has aspirin like chemicals that sink in through your skin.

If someone tries to make you walk on that in the meantime - administer uppercuts.

Honestly, I'll be alright. It hasn't really started hurting until today, and even then, it's a pain very easy to deal with and manage. I'm kind of weird because I HATE taking medicine.

Also; You pump me up.

[Solumina]

Well fuck me, the sun is rising and I'm not asleep yet. I hate sleeping pills but at this point I think its that or no sleep, and I've already had way too little sleep these last few days. If I'm all weird tomorrow I blame the pills.

[Fruitbat]

I had a deep and meaningful discussion with my mother in law. Told her some of the things from my past.... Fuck, now it's going to be on the grapevine. Last thing I want is for everyone to know about the marital *ape and my ex punching a hole through the windscreen of the car with his bare fist.

fuck I'm so stupid sometimes.... The only reason I told her is that Mrbat is really worried about me at the moment.. I mean what the fuck? Why start caring now... or is it just caring because he's now figuring it all out... OMFT

Oh and I'm so full of caffiene I'm buzzing...about to flip out buzzing I think. It's like I'm a labrador at a tennis ball convention and someone has just released a truckload of balls and I don't know which one to chase...

[Solumina]

I don't want to go to bed because when I wake up I'll have to go back to work. I'm really not looking forward to starting Spring Break II with a 10 hour day. Logically I know that the time I go to bed is irrelevant to the time when I have to get up and get ready for work, I also know that being sleep deprived will only make the day worse, doesn't matter, I'm still putting off sleep because it feels like I'm putting off facing tomorrow.

[Fruitbat]

I'm not coming back from this one...

[Versus]

I hurt someone's feelers today.

[Acharis]

Originally Posted by Fruitbat

I'm not coming back from this one...

Are you okay Fruitbat?



Trying to put Firestarter and AVG on even though it's apparently hard to write viruses for Linux... Aha, NOW I need to learn command lines! I need to do that when I have spare thinking power.

[Fruitbat]

[quote=Acharis;692773]Are you okay Fruitbat?

Not really... not at all..


but shit happens....and eventually, maybe hopefully, I'll come out the otherside... but there won't be much left...

[Acharis]

I hope you feel better soon Fruitbat. PTSD is a bitch, but it's possible to come back from.

[ape descendant]

Lately its been one thing after another. So many family issues, just tumbling out like a waterfall, somethings good, some bad.

A close family member of mine is dying slowly, painfully, shrinking and shutting down. It is hard to see one of the kindest, smartest and vigorous people I've ever known slowly fade away never to be seen again. It is hard to watch his spouse go through this with him.

Another is dealing with an emotionally abusive relationship. The ups and downs of which are rather tough to go along with even vicariously. To see her slowly isolated, shamed and broken down by some one she loves so much when that person doesn't even seem to think of her as a human being in her own right. But of course she doesn't see it, not fully, not yet how bad does it have to get before she'll get up and truly stand up for herself?

One of the little ones has been dealing with bullying in school, not only from other kids but from certain adults as well. I am unsure how to help, as he's a little socially awkward and has his own disabilities that aren't apparent from looks alone.

A close member of my family came out to me as transgender, which was weird at first but now I'm rather happy for her and quite supportive. The hard part is seeing how others have treated her differently since then. I've been pleasantly surprised by some of our folks' reactions and unpleasantly surprised by others.

The combination of everything together has been wearing me out to the point of exhaustion. I know some of these things will get better, unfortunately some of these things won't get better, but instead will end in death and mourning.

Ah, it is nice to just get it out and off my chest.

[Fruitbat]

Super big hugs Ape babe. Mwah. Don't forget to recharge your batteries.

Originally Posted by Acharis

I hope you feel better soon Fruitbat. PTSD is a bitch, but it's possible to come back from.

The PTSD is the easy bit to deal with.. the disassociation I've been experiencing for the past month fuckin' sucks, the medication really sucks, and I'm waiting for counselling because I have a major decision to make and I can't make it at the moment, with my head in the clouds and not in the game.

[Angelic Dissonance2]

My dad is a crackhead, and going into an immature fucking tantrum. It made me so upset, I was shaking. My eyes looked like they were bleeding, and I thought I was going to pass out. Instead of growing up, he fucking grew down...

This one's a fucking sticker. Rusty lug-nut. (That's a tire-tech joke.)

Really, I just hope it doesn't get worse... but I might have to whoop his ass.

[Solumina]

I was being really productive, then I got on the computer to look up one thing and now I have no idea what I have been doing for the last hour and a half. Damn you internet!

[ape descendant]

Thanks batty, *hugs and loves*!!

[Solumina]

Ewww some people make me question my sanity because at one point I though they were people I wanted as friends and then they go and do something like asking me how I'm coping with Jake being away just so that they can segue into telling me how they would "comfort" me. Ick.

[Versus]

Originally Posted by Solumina

Ewww some people make me question my sanity because at one point I though they were people I wanted as friends and then they go and do something like asking me how I'm coping with Jake being away just so that they can segue into telling me how they would "comfort" me. Ick.

That's disgusting.

[MissCheyenne]

That's awful Sol. I hope you told them where to stick their 'comfort'. Some people are such dicks.

Hope things turn around for you soon Ape and Fruitbat.

[Saya]

Originally Posted by Solumina

Ewww some people make me question my sanity because at one point I though they were people I wanted as friends and then they go and do something like asking me how I'm coping with Jake being away just so that they can segue into telling me how they would "comfort" me. Ick.

I was drunk!!! GAWD.

[Versus]

Originally Posted by Saya

I was drunk!!! GAWD.

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[Solumina]

Jake and I do have an open relationship so I don't have an issue with someone genuinely offering physical comfort, I'd most likely turn them down (unless it was Saya, you know I'd never turn you down ) because if I were to sleep with someone right now it would be fulfilling an emotional need, not a physical one so it would feel like cheating, but the offer itself I'm totally okay with. The thing is that the way that these guys have done it (all three of the people being all skeezy about it are guys) made it seem like they have just been waiting for him to not be around so they can try to get in my pants.

[Renatus]

Originally Posted by Solumina

Jake and I do have an open relationship so I don't have an issue with someone genuinely offering physical comfort, I'd most likely turn them down (unless it was Saya, you know I'd never turn you down ) because if I were to sleep with someone right now it would be fulfilling an emotional need, not a physical one so it would feel like cheating, but the offer itself I'm totally okay with. The thing is that the way that these guys have done it (all three of the people being all skeezy about it are guys) made it seem like they have just been waiting for him to not be around so they can try to get in my pants.

Hmm, an open relationship with a sailor... Can't say I've ever heard of a situation like that before. The closest thing to it I can think of is the Odssey... Though I don't think Odysseus's solution to the problem will be of much help here.

[Solumina]

Our relationship has pretty much been open since it started, we both figured that while we seemed like a really good match we were at a point in our lives (freshman year in university) where we felt that it was important to explore and experiment and it has worked quite well for us so we have kept the relationship open, there are a few rules but basically what it boils down to is that we are both okay with the other pursuing physical attractions and desires.

Also Odysseus's relationship was only open on the one side, he got to bang lots of chicks out on his adventure while his wife was at home fending off the advances of her suitors.