Rant Thread II - Page 342

Solumina · 12-17-2013, 03:23 PM

I'm sorry Saya

Azrath · 12-18-2013, 06:32 PM

Know what sucks? letting a friend use your computer only to realise that they wanted to try some retarded web myth and coming back to your room 'just' as they fuck your computer over and cause you to need to format and re-install everything.

P.S. I'm back!

Versus · 12-19-2013, 10:19 PM

Sometimes I get a glimpse of the bigger picture and it's really heart breaking.

Solumina · 12-20-2013, 02:20 AM

I know what you mean V. Sometimes you have to really search to find enough good in the world to keep yourself from going crazy.

Solumina · 12-23-2013, 01:33 AM

Gah bug bite on my toe! It itches so much, especially when I'm wearing something on my feet but my feet get cold so easily, especially when walking around on these tile floors.

Acharis · 12-24-2013, 12:53 AM

Everything is so frustrating lately. A lot is minor but some makes it difficult to get where I want to be in life.

TheLonelyGhost · 12-24-2013, 03:31 PM

Everything has been annoying me lately, I seriously need a vacation.

Jaye Jang · 12-25-2013, 01:51 PM

Because of my back-to-back-to-back shifts this holiday I couldn't spend Christmas with my family. Instead I had to 'spend' it with one of my coworkers, who griped because she had to work today. All I could think was, "So what. I had to work Christmas Eve, Christmas morning and I have to work again tonight." And I have the same schedule on New Year's. But, hey, I get to spend the holidays with my family next year. Yay!

Lilyth Von Gore · 12-25-2013, 05:27 PM

Does anyone else's fire alarm do that thing where when it's low on battery it beeps? Because mine does. And it ALWAYS does it at stupid o'clock in the Morning! Always!

BourbonBoy · 12-25-2013, 09:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jaye Jang

Because of my back-to-back-to-back shifts this holiday I couldn't spend Christmas with my family. Instead I had to 'spend' it with one of my coworkers, who griped because she had to work today. All I could think was, "So what. I had to work Christmas Eve, Christmas morning and I have to work again tonight." And I have the same schedule on New Year's. But, hey, I get to spend the holidays with my family next year. Yay!

Tell me about it. I was also on the receiving end of working nine hour shifts over this holiday season and still have some more coming up this week. The only day I've had off was Sunday.

Jaye Jang · 12-26-2013, 09:17 AM

Wow, BB. That's a bummer. The only day I'm getting off is half of Boxing Day (today) and I'm not even Canadian.

BourbonBoy · 12-26-2013, 06:50 PM

Yeah, so far the only thing that's gotten me the last couple of days has been my intake of beer. Tomorrow's when the back to business as usual shift starts at only eight hours with a single 30 minute break for lunch.

I so hate working retail and can't wait to get back into communications.

Acharis · 12-26-2013, 11:09 PM

I don't know how I feel. I just want to cancel everything forever and lie in bed.

Jaye Jang · 12-27-2013, 04:54 AM

I wish I could lie forever in bed, especially the way I feel today, but what else does one do with some time off from work (finally) but go pay bills and run errands. Won't be doing much 'running' today though, and the errands will have to wait until next week which is all my own fault. (My daughter did warn me that the kids were sick, but I just couldn't resist so now I'm paying for all those mini-hugs and kisses). But, the bills won't wait, so gotta go. Don't look forward to the trip. It's freezing, icy and there's that pea-soup thick fog to contend with. Yay.

Acharis · 12-27-2013, 09:11 PM

I have been hiding from the world but haven't been lying in bed like I wanted to. I've been dragging myself through the motions of eating, showering everyday, and cleaning the house back to a normal standard. Making progress for my efforts actually and feeling a bit better about myself compared to a few days ago.

I'm not lazy, depression had just suddenly hit back harder than normal and I was taken by surprise.

Jaye Jang · 12-28-2013, 05:28 AM

Acharis, I can totally relate. Fortunately for me, my insomnia/anhedonia has been with me for so long I don't need meds. Unfortunately, it does sneak up and rear it's ugly head occasionally, but CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) really helps.

I found doing this really helps for me, also:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2zRA5zCA6M

That and having people who understand...

Acharis · 12-30-2013, 03:45 AM

The video was spot on. I understand the thoughts about myself aren't helpful or necessarily based in reality, but it's so hard not to feel like they're true.

I'm trying to do positive things and socialise like a normal person but still so draggy.

ape descendant · 12-31-2013, 07:23 AM

I hear ya. Winter time always hits pretty hard with the depression. I can't tell if I'm just a fucking asshole-jerk who drives every one close away, or if its just winter and everybody has their own shit to do and don't feel like running around town more than they have to in the freezing cold and the snow.

Saya · 12-31-2013, 11:05 AM

Mom got me a Happy Lamp for Christmas to help me out with the winter blues, but I don't know if its working. I do feel better? But it also kinda makes me feel funny?

Acharis · 01-01-2014, 01:09 AM

It's Summer here, I'm on medication, and I have a lightbox. Life has just been a crapalanche for quite some time (especially lately) and it's getting to me.

Edit: I keep sounding like an asshole when I don't mean to. *hugs you guys* Thanks for listening to me whinge.

Saya · 01-01-2014, 05:16 PM

Why did I think you were from the UK?!

And I know what you mean. I really do.

Solumina · 01-03-2014, 04:39 AM

I really hate the first 48 hours of my period. The only things that actually make the pain manageable also make hyper, well not hyper but too energetic/fidgety/whatever to sleep. But if I don't take them then I'm in too much pain to sleep. Either way no sleep. I guess at least if I'm going to be up I'd rather be spending my time feeling like I drank a pot of coffee and wasting time on the internet than tossing about in pain in bed (which would also cause Jake to not get much sleep).

Bah I just wish I could not have this happen but I'm at too high a risk of all sorts of nasty issues (thanks mom) to go on the kind of birth control that reduces the number of periods that you have and insurance wouldn't cover anything to remove the offending organs. There is hope though, now that we are here in HI I may be able to get a doctor to sign off on it (my gyno back home was actually on board with surgery, I just couldn't afford it since my insurance designated it a completely elective surgery, a nose job they would cover if a doctor said it would help me breath better, a boob job they would cover if a doctor said it would fix my body image issues, but a woman wants to take out reproductive organs and suddenly there is nothing a doctor can say to get them to cover it) and with the military the surgery would be free. It's still a big if, I know a lot of doctors are really, really, really against anything that makes it so a woman can't have kids, especially women under 30, but fingers crossed I'll be able to convince them. Now I just need to actually set up an appointment..

TheLonelyGhost · 01-03-2014, 12:22 PM

Well the only thing I have to complain about today is the fact that I keep having these headaches, I think I should quit smoking but it's so hard to try to stop. Maybe I should go to the store and buy some chewing gum, everyone told me before I started how it'll be hard to try to stop. Back than I was so cocky and told them I had will power, haha... ya right. It's so dang hard, errr! Not much of a rant but it's better to get this out there than holding it in.

Murder.Of.Crows · 01-03-2014, 05:45 PM

I was actually really happy today. Strangely too. People at work were the same amount of sexist, racist, and just plain lacking common decency, as usual. The customers were incredibly dumb. Yet, I was happy today. Just ecstatic. Then for some reason, my dysphoria decided to hit me. And, now... I really don't know. I feel all the shit that I had thought I was done with. The uselessness, the hopelessness, the desire to just stop existing. All without provocation. I see the world and I see myself, and it seems, no matter how hard I try, I hard I can ever try, I just will never fit.

Sorry, I just needed to rant. Or something.

I'm sure this feeling will be gone shortly, I just needed to rant.

BourbonBoy · 01-04-2014, 01:14 PM

Hugs MoC. I know that feeling all too well myself.

My rant. I really should quit drinking. It's not like I drink too much, but when I do drink, the next day I feel like I should be hospitalized. Especially after the massive weight loss from last year.