Rant Thread II

[Lyonel]

Originally Posted by BourbonBoy

Two rants for tonight:

Never buy an Asus computer. I've only had my desktop for just over a year and that thing keeps crapping out on me for no fucking reason. I swear when I can scrap together some money I'm buying a new HP. Fuck Asus!

Note to self, when a possible love interest sends a msg at midnight, don't answer it, especially after you've had a dozen or so alcoholic beverages. Now she thinks I'm an asshole and has placed me on ignore. FML

Bummer times dude... Been through something pretty similar today... :/

[Acharis]

Despite having a million things to do I'm kind of bored. The daily grind, it gets to you.

[Lilyth Von Gore]

Why isn't my medication working anymore? *sigh*.
I feel like shit, like I did before I went on the meds.

[BourbonBoy]

You could've gotten used to the current prescription Lilyth. You should call your doctor up about it.

I'm not sure if I should be relieved or not to have never gotten married. I just spent the past hour on FB giving an old school friend advice on what she needs to do to protect herself and the children while kicking the husband out. And it's not like she hasn't tried either. For the past two years she's been the primary bread winner for the five of them and he's done nothing to relieve the situation aside from sitting around all day and playing Xbox.

At the moment, all but two couples I know out of a couple dozen have never even entertained the idea to divorce.

[BlacKat]

I do not understand why my parents are still on about my clothes. Which is weirder, a young woman wearing all black or an older woman who's fucking obsessed with how her adult daughter dresses? I mean quite literally crying over how messed up I am for wearing that stuff, ranting about it for an hour or more at a time. It's at the point where I had to refuse to be in the room with her if she talked about my clothing, just for my own sanity!

Granted I'm pretty sure if it wasn't my clothing she'd just be on about something else. Still, it's almost morbidly amusing how obsessed she is.

[Lilyth Von Gore]

Broke up with my fiancé. That was the hardest break up I've ever had to do.

[Fruitbat]

Originally Posted by ape descendant

Thanks. I lost my oldest brother today. He would go on april fools day, totally his style. He was an awesome poet, musician, dad, husband and brother. He will be sorely missed by many.

Just found this post. My deepest condolences to you and yours lovie.

[ape descendant]

Thanks, Batty. There's been just a little too much death and separation lately, been hiding under the blankets wishing for it to go away.

[BourbonBoy]

*hugs* Ape

[ape descendant]

Wanna lose me as a friend? Threaten to "do something crazy" when it looks like you're not going to get what you want. No thank you, enough anxiety and depression to go around without manipulative dick-face bullshit actively triggering it. *twitch-twitch* Kindly call this hotline if you need help, I am not equipped.

[Lyonel]

Heading the doctor's tomorrow in the morning. Again. Not really trying to get into details but my body seems to have acquired the habit of creating a new problem every time the one before that has been solved. I can never get a break. I've spent these past few years fearing whatever horrifying changes may be around the corner as these things seem to typically manifest. I'm at the point where I can no longer fear. This torment has just gone on long enough that I've become completely apathetic.

No more depression. No more tears. Just fuck it all. I've been past the breaking point. Whatever new problem can come, these days I feel like "gee, what a fucking surprise" in the most apathetic, sarcastic way possible. Hey, beats getting super anxious and paranoid as usual. I'm past the point of pain and care. Currently floating on the waters of apathy. May just end up on the shores of nihilism. Oh god... I feel a poetry-chic coming on.

[TheLonelyGhost]

Well I'm still suffering from a lot of bad memories from what my ex boyfriend did to me, I wish he was out of my mind but he still continues to haunt my mind. Everyone tells me to simply get over it but it's not that easy to get over it. Tomorrow I'm going to see my therapist and to be honest I'm glad that I'll be able to talk about it cause I can't talk to anyone about it without them getting tired of hearing about it which I can't blame them. Not many people want to hear about people's problems all the time, so I can't blame them.

I wish I wasn't depressed but I still am, I wish I had friends but I'm a loner and I wish people would like me but a lot of people always tell me that I'm weird or that I'm hard to understand. Sometimes I wish I could disappear or go somewhere else where nobody knew who I was.

[Lyonel]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyGhost

Well I'm still suffering from a lot of bad memories from what my ex boyfriend did to me, I wish he was out of my mind but he still continues to haunt my mind. Everyone tells me to simply get over it but it's not that easy to get over it. Tomorrow I'm going to see my therapist and to be honest I'm glad that I'll be able to talk about it cause I can't talk to anyone about it without them getting tired of hearing about it which I can't blame them. Not many people want to hear about people's problems all the time, so I can't blame them.

I wish I wasn't depressed but I still am, I wish I had friends but I'm a loner and I wish people would like me but a lot of people always tell me that I'm weird or that I'm hard to understand. Sometimes I wish I could disappear or go somewhere else where nobody knew who I was.

I hope things get better for you. I know it's hard being wrapped up in a problem that doesn't go away as quickly as one wished and having to deal with it for such a prolonged period of time can be very rough when you run out of open, caring ears. Of course no one wants to hear about your problems all the time, but hey, that's what therapists are for! I hope you can get it all out with him/her and liberate yourself from having to feel like that all the time.

[Duane2.0]

Ugh, I found out that, though, College really isn't a whole lot harder than High School, there seems to be 2x time homework. I'm overwhelmed!!!!

[BourbonBoy]

I have no idea why, but I've been in a shitty mood in the last few days. The slightest thing seems to piss me off, be it the kid in the grocery store stuffing my food in plastic bags before putting them in my backpack or my roommates asking me what I'm having for breakfast.

Then again, I recently changed my diet such as all but quitting sodas (even sugar cane based) so maybe it's caffeine withdrawal.

[Saya]

Oh I am totally like that when I quit caffeine. I've never managed to completely cut it because of that, and the headaches I get.

I got a writing job, which is exciting! But my articles are due tomorrow and I'm having hardcore Imposter Syndrome. I feel like everything I wrote is stupid and they're going to regret hiring me.

[BourbonBoy]

Yeah, I thought green tea would be a good substitute for the caffeine, guess it's back to black tea in the morning.

Don't worry too much about the writing Saya, it's your first assignment. They'll likely give you some leeway for it.

[Jaye Jang]

Only two weeks in and I'm already sick of snow. Watched the snow sander get stuck in the snow on yesterday. It's going to be a long winter.

[Liberty]

I've been feeling lonely as hell lately. Not that I am alone, I'm around a fair amount of people each day. To make matters worse I'm in high school and have to deal with some of the most idiotic people on the planet. I feel as though it is impossible to find just one intelligent, down to earth person that is near my own age. In fact, I find it difficult to locate even an adult who is like that. I have friends, or at least people that I joke with and hang out with... but not even my family knows much more than my basic interests and hobbies. I can hardly remember the last time I had a truly meaningful and deep conversation. My loneliness stems not from a lack of human contact, but from a lack of connection to those that are in contact with me. Not to be cliché, but quite simply put I feel as though no one understands me. But is a person ever truly understood? I think not. I just long for the day when everything falls into place, like the leaves that tumble to the ground from the tree in my yard. I want to be one of those leaves. I've already taken the plunge from the branches and am simply waiting to decompose into the Earth and become one with the world, and one within the true ecosystem that I belong to. Will I disintegrate and integrate into the soil of society, or will I simply be a leaf forever blown around by the wind, given absolutely no chance to settle?

[HumanePain]

Seeing all the pain in this thread tugs my old heart strings and also brings back memories of helping some of you guys years ago (Renatus and I used to even talk on the phone during his bad spells).

If ever any of you need to talk (Especially you Liberty) send me a PM.

Oh yeah, forgot my personal rant: American Express is gonna be the fucking death of me. That is all.

[Liberty]

Why thank you. It's very nice having someone willing to do that for me.

[BourbonBoy]

Word to my new roommate, flush the fucking toilet after a number 2! Oh yeah, and if you're almost finished with a roll of tp, have another on standby. And another thing, if you're going to run the dishes finish up what's in the sink as well. Just because you brought a dog into the house doesn't excuse you from leaving your shit laying around the fucking house for the others to clean up.

tldr: I hate sloppy roommates.

[Saya]

Ew! I'm usually the messy roommate, but that's beneath even me.

[BourbonBoy]

Yeah, it's frustrating but he's cleaned up his act already. Hopefully he can keep it up because I've had roommates before who clean up for about a week at most before reverting back to their old ways.

[Acharis]

I'm getting really physically run down and depressed. These days it seems to be one thing after another with a slap in the face for good measure.