Oh my heart soars when I read your words!
All of you, each of you .. you're such utter Loves <3
I smile, I laugh, I agree!
Damn it, you people ignite a spark of hope and are generating a yearning.
LOL ~ that's dangerous o.O
I'll do my thing whereby I'll go running at people, seeking friendship, comfort ..
understanding. Then I'll get bitten yet again and limp back to the safety of my tomb .. lick my wounds and chastise myself for the try, because yet again they've shown me that they're monsters that wear pretty masks.
Still .. it's human to seek connection, I am only human ...
The best place that I ever found was a forum I joined back in Jan 2004.
I've had depression & anxiety issues since teens, following my beloved Grandma's passing in '03 a light went out inside of me. I kinda had a breakdown. Desperate, I typed 'depression' into Google and found la forum.
I'd never seen a forum, had zero clue wtf I was doing, just pottered about
After a short time I was asked to be a moderator, so for the next couple of years that was my gig. The forum was for those who suffer from depression, anxiety & mood disorders ... the whole shebang covered.
Folks .. I tell ya .. that place was HOME <3
The community was worldwide, each member had varying degrees of MH issues, from depression through to schizophrenia, anxiety to PTSD ...
They had it all ~ but they gave their all <3
As moderators were UK & US based time zones were covered, there was always a mod around and members hung out constantly .. not always in need of aid, often just socializing, having some much needed laughs and receiving restbite.
Beautiful souls. They had on line decorum lol .. a something we have perceived that many net users are devoid of! If they disagreed, they discussed!
Empathy, tolerance and good manners, they made that place a safe home from the hardships, stigmas and judgments of society out there.
Since the forum stopped I've always harboured thoughts of refinding ..
Alas, there has to date never been a place like it ..
You'll notice that I said 'to date'
For I'll never give up! People are what makes a forum a home.
Sure you can paint a house pretty and furnish it with finery ..
But walls need laughter, voices, shared stories!
So the entire point of this essay offered?
Well, you are THIS forum.
You are its voices, currently its story.
So if we want to make a house a home lmaoo we are capable!