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Originally Posted by Xnguela
I've discovered that most people are more asshole-ish when they're in a group.
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I am VERY late finding my way here and I am sorry for that Xng.
That's so much fucking bullshit, there really aren't any words.
And your correct about groups, people in groups are 100% more likely to either A) Turn their head when someone else does something violent Or B) Participate themeselves simply because they do not want to be the only one NOT participating..
As I mentioned before I grew up in Houston, Texas. I lived for five or six years in ' Montrose ' which is a predominantly Gay part of town.
All the Jocks and Frat Boys from the Burbs used to get all liquored up on the weekends and drive down to the Montrose to find some ' Queer ' to beat up.
This of course was YEARS before such things as ' Hate Crimes '
I was driving back to my loft one evening during the Westheimer Arts Festival, which was a freak fest we had in the Montrose every summer. Lots and lots of fun, but thats another story.
As I turned onto the street near my loft I started to hear people yelling, and someone else screaming. I slowed my car and rolled down the window and could tell it was coming from nearby.
I pulled over and got out of my car and saw all the empty vendor booths closed down for the evening. As I started walking towards them, I saw the guys.
Three Frat boys kicking the living shit out of someone else..
I won't even repeat the things they were yelling..
This wasn't that long after a gay/mexican friend of mine had been killed from a ' Boot Party ' some skins decided to have on his skull. To this day we don't know whether they killed him for being 'gay' or 'mexican'.
Something just snapped inside of me and I started screaming as I ran at the three of them. I suppose they stopped because I startled them so much.
We all looked at each other for what seemed like an eternity, and then one of these assholes says; " Fuck this ******, let's go. "
They took off running, and just as quickly as all of this rage came on me, it drained away when I saw what was left of the man they had beaten to an unrecognizable pulp.
He was just a guy. An artist, selling his handmade pottery down there to make some extra money.
You couldn't even tell he was human anymore..
The sad thing is the police station was less than a block away. But the cops were so busy because of fuckheads like this, he never stood a chance.
Someone else stopped and went and called 911 for me.
All I could do is sit there with him, hold his hand and tell him it was going to be ok.
It didn't make any sense then, and all of these years later, it still doesn't.
It never will..
Guys like those bastards are the same ones who showed up outside the chapel of my friend Dan Mattatat's funeral to spit on his friends and family, because he was gay and he died of AIDS.
Poor Dan was so ashamed of who he was, and what happened to him, his parents didn't even know he had AIDS and was dying until he was dead.
It was so heartbreaking.
Of course there was more ignorance and more fear then there is now.
Much has changed since the nineties, but not enough.
But there has been much progress, and at least there is a wee bit more tolerance among people..
But there always be those pathetic, insecure pieces of shit that feel the need to destroy what they do not understand..
Those guys aren't even worth you spitting on Angel..
Karma will get them in a much more gruesome way than you, or any of us ever could.
You held to your convictions, and what you believed in, and THATS what matters.
They may have hurt you, but they couldn't touch the part of you and everyone else that they truly wanted to hurt.
That part is untouchable by any of them.
Your pride, your beliefs, your passion, is yours and yours alone..
They didn't lay a finger on that..
I am proud of you for staying strong, and not lowering yourself to their pathetic level.
Sending you lots of Love, just like everyone else, and I am so so sorry..
You did the right thing, hold tight to that..
During Vietnam, a Buddhist monk was asked what he would do if he was shot at for his peaceful protest against the war.
I will never forget his answer, and it took me years to understand it.
His answer was a simple one..
He said "
If the bullets come, I simply will not be here. "
Don't be there ok?
We love you Pretty, and I'm here if you ever need me..
*Soft Hugs*