Tell somthing about yourself, that you haven't shared with someone else

[gothboy13]

and i was in one of my very rare good moods

[gothboy13]

dude im only 14

[gothboy13]

and im not trying to impress anyone i just want to belong

[JuliaGaltic]

Originally Posted by gothboy13

dude im only 14

Bwahahaha!

Sorry for the sudden outburst but sometimes things make too much sense once brought to light.

*wipes tears from eyes*

Phew, that was a good one.

Seriously though gothboy, you're my brothers age so I guess I have a little soft spot for you and will show unwarranted kindess.

Just watch and learn and don't try to belong. You either do or you don't. Express your opinons and we'll either agree or disagree.

[gothboy13]

i am only 14 and ill be 15 in august

[gothboy13]

Sorry for disappointing you and I shall make my vocabulary much more better.

[She_Is_My_Sin]

Thank you Empty_Purple_Stars! I will be much more careful...I had no idea.

[She_Is_My_Sin]

I still look at the guy I fancied when I was 9 & wish I'd said something.

[gothboy13]

Well thank you for telling me some of the rules of this thread. From now on I'll use commas and apostraphes. I'll also use periods, end points, and capitol letters.

[Wise Child]

Originally Posted by She_Is_My_Sin

I still look at the guy I fancied when I was 9 & wish I'd said something.

I do that too! Only I was twelve. While realistically I know we'd have gone out for a week then had a massively dramatic break-up in the grand tradition of my local comprehensive, you have to wonder. Who knows but we'd be married now?... *sigh* Oh no, wait - he's a tweaker now, and he's not remotely good-looking anymore. Oh well. Call it a lucky escape.

[joyslayer]

It's a start I suppose.

[Underwater Ophelia]

Something I don't share with most people is...though I describe myself as a ravin' pagan...sometimes I'm afraid I'll go to hell.

[Liquid Dreams]

Alot of stuff that goes on in my head goes unspoken and unshared. I just think it's unfair for others to experience the secrets I have. And that's what I don't tell people, nobody knows that and that's the way it's staying.

I know I seem general and I don't really reveal much but I seriously don't enjoy sharing any of my most sacred intimacies.

Something I don't tell alot of people is that I've been to prison, which is in fact better kept under the radar. I don't like the attention it could erupt, I don't like the stereotypes and what have you either.

In addition to that I can't seem to get a job, I have no income, I live with my parents and I'm in my twenties, sad? Yes. I also seem to have some kind of inferiority complex that is made up of things I can't explain. That there is one of the things I've never told anyone I know. I tried to explain to a counsellor but that didn't work.

[joyslayer]

Hmm, therapists don't always work. It sometimes is a thing that you, and you alone, have to reslove. Those aren't easy, but if you have the willpower, they pay off a great deal.

[Godslayer Jillian]

I'm also afraid of going to hell. I've even cried when I get from school on mondays because we have chapel that day, so basically I hate mondays. It's hard to hear friends and teachers believe you're going to rot in hell and try to be stoic for 7 hours.
But then also, I wouldn't like to be in the heaven of a god who would send me to hell because I'm different

[joyslayer]

Hun, I've been told I'm going to hell by countless bible-suckers. Honestly, there is no way of truly knowing that a god exists, there is also no way of knowing if a god does not exist. But to be truthful, I happen to be atheist. I just can't imagine how a world could be filled with so much hurt and sorrow and still have someone watching over us. But then again, how could we function the way we do now, with out a little guidance? Me, atheist to the core. But don't let other people tell you where you are going after death, let that be your own desicion.

[edible_eye]

my ass burns if i eat too many hot peppers, not right away. oh no. it waits until i've forgotten i ever ate them and then WHAM!

i'm doubled over on the toilet releasing the fire of hell from my puckered, brown starfish.

[Ben Lahnger]

This is the closest I come to having a religious belief system:

"Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy." - Benjamin Franklin

Somewhere in the religion section I will someday explain why I don't beleive what I don't believe, and why I'm damn glad most people DO believe.

[She_Is_My_Sin]

Originally Posted by Wise Child

I do that too! Only I was twelve. While realistically I know we'd have gone out for a week then had a massively dramatic break-up in the grand tradition of my local comprehensive, you have to wonder. Who knows but we'd be married now?... *sigh* Oh no, wait - he's a tweaker now, and he's not remotely good-looking anymore. Oh well. Call it a lucky escape.

Aww kinda like me & my guy.I don't speak to him anymore but when we did chat to each other we would just be ourselves.But we have nothing in common anymore ,he's into stuff like rap music & likes sportswear.But gosh he was cute in his scouts uniform.A couple of weeks ago his younger brother told me that he liked me then too...

[Ben Lahnger]

For the people worried about going to hell:

"Imagine there's no heaven, It's easy if you try, No hell below us, Above us only sky..."

John Lennon - 'Imagine'

My belief is that we experience Heaven and Hell here on earth in this mortal life, and how we respond to it makes us angels or devils.

Back to the thread, I was looking for something unusual to post, but after going back a few pages and reading the posts about R*** and other painful revelations, mine all seem like "I had a blister once." And I so deeply want to acknowledge those admissions as being so much more significant and illuminating than what I am about to post. But I wanted to add to the subject anyway, so here goes:

When I first moved to Houston, I moved in with an escort I met over the internet. I never sought out her services ... I was just chatting in a forum and after getting to know her a bit, one day she said she needed a ride to Dallas. So I drove down to Houston, gave her a lift to Dallas and hung around town while she ... er ... entertained her client. On the way back I mentioned how depressed I was about being stuck in the podunk cow-town I was living in at the time. She suggested I move in with her, so I started sharing her apartment in Houston.

She had a boyfriend whom she had an open relationship with (obviously) and so once in a while we enjoyed some recreational sex together. But not as often as I would have liked, and I hadn't really met anyone in Houston yet (I was still looking for work.) She also ran her own escort agency, and so there were all these very sexy, very attractive (and some not-so attractive) women hanging around all the time. And one time my roommate said one of them could stay with us for a while, and she could share my bed while she was there.

Now I didn't quite know what to make of that, because I was pretty sure she wasn't telling this woman to sleep with me ... I was pretty sure she just wanted her to share bed space with me. And I was a good boy for two nights. But then on the third night I confided with this lovely lady that I was going to go crazy if I had to keep sleeping with her and doing nothing. And she told me she felt the same way, so we went after each other like crazed weasels. And it was very good! But the next day, my roommate was pissed. To this day I keep coming back to this in my mind and thinking "Was this some kind of bizarre test?" Weird!

I moved out a few months later, and moved on. But I never told anyone that story until now.

[Godslayer Jillian]

The picture of 1TOOMANY creeps me out

[joyslayer]

Originally Posted by Santarea

*jots down "puckered brown starfish" for future use*

Joyslayer, have you ever looked into Deism? It was a belief of many alleged Christian founding fathers (of thr US)- in general- God made us and wants us to be good. BUT, ultimately, has no active hand in our lives. Does not interfere. There are many branches of Christianity and many other faiths with deities- not all are interactive. Many deities see us like albino mice in a tank, but without tapping on the glass.

In this sense, belief in a god is easy because it causes nothing but the initial spark that put us all here (or whathaveyou).

Belief in a living interacting god is something altogether different. Many people don't get it. I don't fully understand, hence the agnosticism. But I make the attempt to understand something before I dismiss it based on the perceptions of others and not my own research.

At first, I didn't know why I came to my conclusion, But after my Josh died, I just kind of lost faith. What god would ever do that to someone like Josh? I supose this kind of does require a little too much background information, but I just can't beleive in anything that has the power to stop people from dying, that doesn't use this power. I've witnessed a few losses too many.

[Mr E Nigma]

I have a secret Penguin obsession... oh wait... something I haven't told anyone else... ummm

I'm a die hard Mystery Science Theatre 3000 fan! \m/(>_<)\m/

[Manimal]

Originally Posted by eyesofatragedy

I love that show!

I never watched it after Joel left. That was a sad day for me. I think I might have cried.

[Mr E Nigma]

Toons for the times.... Penguin Dreams and Stranger things... how could I not be a Bloom County fan <3

and actually you are the first person I've talked to besides myself that has heard of that... me = amazed

Are you located anywhere near VA, because I'd like to give your lovely self a huge hug... But I doubt it so for now =e-hug= ^_^

do you have a myspace?