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I think am ruined ...
Hello everyone ...
I don't know a better place to post this except in the whining forum..
* please note that my english is not 100% since its not my first language *
i live with my father and his wife , my real mother is in russia ..
Yesterday at 3am i was utterly bored at home ... woke up at 00:00 , i had a huge fight with my dad and his wife the day before , they actually hate me and keep me in the house just so i won't be left in the streets ..
so i went for a walk at 3:00am then after a while a car came up to me asking where am heading , there was 3 guys the driver was 28-ish yo. and the guy next to him was around 17-ish , in the back of the car was a guy i saw many times around the street where i live so i felt its no problem to tell them my direction ... i wanted to go to an internet cafe that is around 2-3 KM away from my house .
i sat in the car ... they wanted to get some food , and went into another direction ... parked near a store bought some food .. finished , and went back to the right direction ... they were asking me usual things such as were from ... where do u study , where do u work ..etc.
then he dropped off the first guy near him near his house , then the second one near his house too was all a bit far away from were i live ... so i saw near the drivers seat so he would drop me off to my house since its too late for an internet cafe already ...
then he told me hang on i wanna see if friend is awake so i can go to work aswell with him .. so he parked in the parking lot ... turned off the car ..
grabbed my neck and started to tell me to ask for forgiveness .
clearly there was something wrong with him ..
for a sudden i thought am gonna get killed ..
then i told him am sorry .. he kept doing so 10 times then told me to kiss his cheek to forgive me ..
i said no ... then he said if u say no again i will hate u ..
so i approached and kissed but he sat his lips infront of mine ..
I could not fight out the doors were closed , he was a lot tougher then me ..
i was almost in a shock state i barely can remember ..
After that fucker started kissing me on my lips all the time he lied down on me and continued doing so , then grabbed me and put my on his legs and started unzipping my pants i did not let him , then he kept kissing like a fucktard and as if fucking me in his clothes ...
when he finished his fucking sick desire he asked me if i have brothers ..
i told him i have one who does not live with me
then he said promise me that u will be mine and i will be like ur brother if u want anything i will always be there ... money i will give u do not be shy to ask ..
i said promise just to get the fuck out soon , then he repeated this 10 times and i did promise ...
i just wanted this fucking nightmare to end , then he told me if i fail my promise what will happend ? i said what ? he said i will cut off ur head ...
he dropped me at my house and gave me his number and told me to call him tomorrow so we can meet again ...
i do not know why am fucking telling this ... but i can't seem to tell this to any one .. my brother ... fucking father .. or any one ..
i live in jordan since 3 years to study university am 19 and am actually russian , and am a guy i hate the country am in since i came ...
Can u please tell me what to do .... am really fucking scared and can't tell any one i know In real what happened and this guy seemed to know every one even the cops passed by when we first went to eat and said hi to him ...
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